12/13/2025
I find myself returning to bear blogs even after changing my old habits of blogging. I started during my sophomore year of high school in efforts to add something to my resume, considering how college applications, summer programs, etc have become extremely competitive. I'm now a junior in high school, and while many of my peers are taking up to 7 AP courses, I'm taking a mere 5 AP courses in consideration of being happy.Ironically, when I hear how stressed my classmates are, I find myself feeling extremely guilty and inadequate.
I feel guilty for not challenging myself more. What if taking more AP classes would've led to growth? Why do I feel guilty for being happy when most of my peers are engulfed in work? Afterall, whenever junior year is over, they will forget most of the suffering they felt and be left with the fruits of their labor: more AP classes to put on a resume and more college credit.
On another note, I desperately need to ace my math midterm. I cannot lose my 4.0 because I didn't try my best to study for this bro
#relatable?