my shit eyesight
Every year I go to the optometrist to be struck with weekly depression about how dogshit my eyesight is. Part of it is genetics; I'm east Asian and both my parents are nearsighted. But also because of the prominence of technology in my daily life. I doubt I could live without wifi.
The prospect of growing old and blind with thick, heavy lenses is so unappealing. During my childhood, my optometrist would terrify me with the possibility of my eyeball separating? It gave me nightmares and I would cry about my eyesight, swearing that I'd stop playing Roblox daily. I fell off that wagon after two days.
In another life, I live in the rural countryside as a country bumpkin and my eyeball isn't shaped like a football.
I wish I could wake up and see my ceiling fan clearly, but it is what it is. The only thing I can do is stop myself from doomscrolling and using technology excessively. 🤷♀️