notes of first love 2
I feel tired and emotionally exhausted after talking to him for a long time. It's probably just a effect of having so much dopamine and oxytocin overflow in such a short period.
Or maybe I'm overthinking my interactions with him when I should just be enjoying the experience. I've also been thinking of him a lot in my free time, which might be why it's more draining to be around him?
notes for myself:
1.Relax and enjoy the moment without worrying about how he is perceiving you.
2.Shift focus to connection, not validation; I'm enough as I am. But I guess being romantically involved with someone also brings you room to improve and grow?
3.The more I let my mind relax, the less mentally drained I'll feel? I think this may be a key factor, every good interaction I have is when I'm relaxed.
4.Let connection happen naturally without needing constant reassurance. Heavy on this one.
I've definitely been feeling the pressure of needing approval, since I'm not as naturally intelligent as he is. To be fair, he is like, extremely gifted intelligent. Like, try and get a 1500 on the PSAT without studying intelligent.
I SHOULD JUST RELAX!!!!!! JUST ENJOY THE TIME WITH HIM! NOT THAT SERIOUS!