notes of first love 8
I'm genuinely so distressed right now. I want the relationship to work, but I'm always tired after interacting with him, like, drained. It's not to the point of being exhausting, but I always want some personal-me-time afterwards to recuperate my social battery.
If you're spending time with someone you like, you should be energized, right?? I'm so confused and these issues are stressing my out. I used to look forward everyday to seeing him, knowing that it would skyrocket my energy, but now there isn't any skyrocketing; it's just laughter and feeling tired after.
I'm not facing any direct issues with him right now, so why do I feel this way? Is it because I subconsciously feel an obligation to talk to him? Or maybe it's because we both don't have time to nurture the relationship??????? I'm over my previous thoughts of fearing that he finds out how unsmart I am compared to him, so why do I still feel this dull ache?
bro, what's wrong with me?????