nothing makes me more irritable than college applications
I finished writing most of my supplementals and my personal statement as well. However, it feels like people are shoving their fucking words and perception of me down my throat. My mother hired a friend of hers, a Chinese student who studied English literature. My mom, an author, said that she was a great writer. My mom is a traditionally published Chinese author.
Oh god if this doesn't make me the most irritable bitch on the earth I don't know what will. I put my essays into some ai essay graders out of curiosity, like LumiSource and GradGPT. The one my mother's friend revised scored lower than my own words. Additionally, my mother's friend is making up shit that never even happened to fit the narrative. Oh, god the way that she rewrote my essay pisses me the fuck off.
The way that she has included things my mother has told her that don't reflect me at all.
Otherwise, I feel like there are way too many conflicting sources of essay feedback. It's so overwhelming. I don't know what to listen to, and how good my essays truly are. At this point, just end me bro. I died in 2020 and this is hell.
I apologize for my foul language, haha. I'm just overwhelmed and my mom keeps riding my ahh about applying and getting onto me about the ED deadline. Like GOD I am FUCKING TRYING.IT SEEMS THAT SHE JUST DOESN'T THINK I'M LOCKED IN AT ALL OH MYOI OIFJAINFO:AIJFIPA"NF"PIAJ F ]FA'F:ojiaNOAFAF'
that's the end of my rant. i'm going to plan my university portfolio video and do my math homework now. I don't know what these colleges or my mom want to fucking hear from me and I don't want to think about it right now.
I bawled so much after writing this article